The Advent of Dionysus / Gerarai / The Fourteen / 4.03

6. Vanessa

Vanessa comes from the Greek word phanessa, which means butterfly, and corresponds to one's free will—Butterflies Are Free. Vanessa specifically concerns the bride to be, who exercises her choice in marriage, of her own free will, and hence the beginning of the engagement period. In many ways she portrays a woman in fantasy, which isn't necessarily bad, for it's what a woman wishes for, but has little or no power over. Compare the number 34, as opposed to 43, which shows the woman developing her weaker side. And, as women are more prone to do this than men (in a romantic sense), it's all the more acceptable. I give an example of the number 34, regarding Dorothy and The Wizard of Oz in chapter 6.

All of which compares with the Church of Philadelphia, the 6th church in the book of Revelation: "...behold, I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it: for thou hast a little strength, and hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name."

Revelation 3:8 Which clearly refers to what one wishes for: "thou hast a little strength"; with respect to one's free will choice: "I have set before thee an open door." Suggesting the actual engagement period prior to marriage. Thus Vanessa portrays the woman's wish, which is of her will: the endeavor or attempts to effect an eventual outcome (the marriage itself), although the outcome may not reflect the endeavor itself.

In many ways Vanessa concerns the woman's mother (4) more than the woman herself (6): her mother being her dominant aspect. Which can be seen by joining the numbers 4 and 6, to form the number 46, as corresponds to Sybil (4) and, to the woman's mother ..."676." Similarly, the man's father (1), and the man himself (5), are joined to form the number 15. As corresponds to Daphne (1) and, to the man's father ... "575." Thus a marriage occurs between the qualities of the man's father (1 and 15), and the qualities of the woman's mother (4 and 46) ..."777." As the numbers 14 and 56 might suggest, which correspond to Rachel and signifiy true love. And here the number 56 signifies the wedding of the bridegroom (5) to the bride (6), although the number 567, which is of Karen and includes the wedding day (as does 147) is more applicable; while it's also part of the number 574 (560 + 7 + 7), regarding the beginning of this chapter.

As for the number 46, I draw a parallel between the 4th church and the 6th church, the Christian Church and Today's Church, in chapter 12. And illustrate the similarity between the Seven Churches of Asia and the New Church in Southern Oregon. While I allude to the Christian Church and its correspondence to the woman's will—or mother.

At last the Church of Man has been compared to a woman in marriage—The Lord's Wife. But the true bride has yet to awaken, represented by the lifting of the veil or, dawning of the truth. What will be brought out in the accounts of Karen (7) and Justine (8), regarding the numbers 567 and 5678.

"Butcher the Cows"

7. Karen

Karen comes from the Greek name Catherine, which means the pure. And here Ariadne, the wife and beloved of Dionysus, is nearly the same: the most pure. While the name Kari, is a cross between the two. Having determined the bride to be, Karen signifies the bride unveiled (the foreskin over the heart), which involves the wedding day and, the marriage itself. As the number 567 suggests (Karen's number), which joins the bridegroom (5) to the bride (6), in marriage (7).

Hence there's a correlation to the Church of Laodicea, the 7th church in

Revelation 3:14-22 Being the lukewarm church, it signifies the man's true intentions towards the woman, whether or not he's intent on marrying the her. It's also the period the couple is most apt to experience cold feet and back down from the relationship.

While Karen is the bride herself, who up to this point hadn't understood her husband's intentions. She had been playing the part of the whore, continually plotting and scheming, searching for ways leading into the excesses of Aphrodite, goddess of love and passion. Yet like Aphrodite, Karen is a fervent and impassioned creature, who truly is pure, when held within the constraints of innocence. Oh violet Aphrodite! And indeed, Ariadne is often called an earthly Aphrodite.

Thus for the sake of purity, Aphrodite is introduced to Artemis (Karen is introduced to Cindy), to which the number 37 (or 373) corresponds: a state of true intercourse. As Karen (7) is brought within the constraints of Cindy (3), the woman's intellect. While the colors yellow (3) and violet (7) also correspond, as illustrated in Diana (9) and, on the front cover.

Another number addressing this is 49, which is Karen's number and is 7 x 7. While it's synonymous with Pentecost: the descending of the Holy Ghost, which occurs 49 days or 7 weeks after Easter, and means the 50th day. And so signifies the name Dennis: as portrayed by the Greek letter delta, which means the fourth, and the word ennis, which in Greek means the ninth. Thus you have "D" (4) + "ennis" (9) or, Dennis (49).

The number 49 also corresponds to the color chart, shown in part on the front cover, as well as in chapter 6. With the colors as follows: red (1), orange (2), yellow (3), white (4), green (5), blue (6), violet (7), gray (8), black (9) and brown (10). Thus the number 49 depicts the colors white (4) and black (9). And, by mixing the two you get gray (8): i.e., 4 x 9 = 36, as corresponds to Justine (8). Which is also expressed by the number 5678—the numbers between 4 and 9—again Justine's number. Hence the number 49 depicts the color gray (8) but, probably best expresses the contrast between white (4) and black (9). The number 50, which is of Justine, would correspond more. And here it's interesting that Nevada—the 36th state—is called the "silver state" (which is essentially derived from the color gray) and, that the 50th wedding anniversary is called the "silver anniversary."

As the number 567 corresponds to Karen (7), and the number 78 (or 5678) corresponds to Justine (8)—i.e., whenever a number is preceded by 7, it remains the same—it's appropriate to insert a 7 between the numbers 4 and 9 and form the expression 479: or 4 (77) 9. And here, the numbers 74 (47 read from right to left) and 79 correspond to the numbers 4 and 9. (Please see Diana.) Thus signifying the addition of color (the number 7), regarding the various shades of gray (the number 49 or, 5678). The number 479 also corresponds to Cindy (3), the woman's intellect, and shows how Karen (7) is brought within constraints (what I initially wished to convey). It's also related to the number 432, as mentioned in Sybil (4), i.e., 4 + 3 = 7 + 2 = 9.

The number 479 is further illustrated with the number 33: the reciprocation of Cindy (3), culminating into Prudence (5). By inserting a 4 (i.e., the woman's will) between the two 3's, you get 3(4)3, which corresponds to Karen (7) and, the marriage itself. (It's also 7 x 7 x 7.) And, by inserting a 7, you get 3(7)3, as corresponds to Diana (9), a state of true intercourse. Finally, by inserting a 9, you get 3(9)3, which corresponds to Daphne (1), the man's intellect, thus completing the sequence. The number 3(1)3 corresponds again to Prudence. The end result, 3(479)3, which is also of Cindy, shows the delineation of Karen (the focus remaining on Karen), within the constraints of Cindy. While the number 479 is illustrated further in chapter 8.

It becomes apparent why I began this series with the number 343 when looking at the numbers 32 and 23. Essentially reciprocals, they correspond to the numbers 4 and 9 and, to the name Dennis (49). When added, "320 + 023," as compared to "40 + 09," you get 343 and 49, both of which correspond to Karen (7)—and, demonstrate how 7 is triplicated. The number 32 also signifies the highest aspect of good, the good of marriage (as portrayed in Sybil): with the numbers 32 and 23 its two reciprocals.

And here it's significant that Minnesota is the 32 state and, that the border between the United States and Canada is the 49th parallel or, 49 degrees latitude. Thus the number 32 (4), and its reciprocal 23 (9), join to form 49. Which is substantiated, for only a small tip of Minnesota—of the lower 48 states—extends above the 49th parallel: at Lake of the Woods. Hence Minnesota is aptly called, The Gopher State (as it burrows into Canada). On the other hand, Alaska, the 49th state, fully extends above the 49th parallel. Which is all the more unusual!

It's also interesting how I discovered this shortly after my 32nd birthday, in 1988 (with the year 88 and the number 32 corresponding to Sybil). And, that I found out the significance of my name at this time: that it comes from Dionysus and corresponds to the number 49, making it integral to what I'm saying above.

"Forage the Goats"

8. Justine

Justine is the feminine of Justin, which comes from the word justice, and means the just. While in accord with the marriage, Justine is synonymous with the honeymoon, a state of exploration which, corresponds to circumcision: Abraham was instructed to circumcise the male children of his household at the age of eight days. Similarly, the honeymoon portrays the lifting of the veil on the wedding day (7), and it's complete removal on the wedding night (8). Much as the number 78 suggests, which joins Karen (7) to Justine (8)—or, the joint correspondence of Justine (8).

Upon lifting the veil, the woman sees who her husband really is for the first time: i.e., the truth dawns, in accord with Karen (7). At which point she feels completely bewildered and exposed, as she sees the depth of his concern and is exposed to all the whorish games she'd been playing. As a ray of sunlight touches her mind she thinks, "Wow, maybe he does love me," and sees a flame in him, comparable to the flame lit in Apollo, when he beheld the beautiful Daphne. Hence the numbers 75, 57 and 757 apply: which show Karen (7) and Prudence (5), as the bridegroom (75), together with Daphne, the man's intellect (57 and 757).

Yet Karen was already unstable to begin with, and upon receiving this awe-ful insight she goes berserk, and rushes off wildly into the state of Justine. (The honeymoon usually is pretty wild.) What I like to compare to a great big unmanageable dog on a leash, a wolf? tied to a stake driven into the ground, as it undergoes obedience training. And so corresponds to Karen's heart (7)—i.e., Heart of the Matter—from which the dog pulls until the leash is taught (which is symbolically in the husband's hand), and proceeds to circumscribe a circle around the area defined by its length or radius.

Thus circumcision is performed and the bridal veil removed (the foreskin over the heart), allowing justice to become manifest. The dog then begins to explore the territory within the circle's boundaries—in accord with the exploration state or honeymoon. And, as it begins to settle down, the way is prepared for Diana (9), and her hounds. (Diana was known for the hunting dogs she kept.)

This state also corresponds to work, for it's through work that justice becomes manifest. To work like a dog? While work itself pertains to the body or flesh. Which seems fitting for Adam was commanded to work by the sweat of his brow to atone for his ignorance.

Genesis 3:17-19 Whereas Apollo had to serve the mortal King Admetus for eight years to atone for his! And what do we mean by putting in an eight hour day? While in late 1989 I had a vision of my wordprocessor on my desk, the screen tilted up and saying, Justine. And I knew it was time to begin work on this book. Although the first thing I had written was the letter to David two years before, which is now part of chapter 8. Suggesting the same thing! "... And the veil was lifted."

"Fleece the Sheep"

9. Diana

Diana is the Roman form of Artemis, the moon goddess, virgin, and twin sister to Apollo. (See Cindy.) And here I have a second cousin named Diana (about my age), which Kari's 9th image reminded me the most—Diana being a distant cousin of Artemis. Thus it's significant how I derived the name! Diana's number is 9, which is 3 x 3 or, Cindy x Cindy ..."373." While the moon's death number is 3 x 3. It's also the age at which young girls were initiated into her cult, and brings to mind the nine Muses, the female entourage of Apollo, who were also virgins. While at Apollo's birth, Artemis assisted a full nine days before he was delivered.

Diana signifies is a state of true intercourse, regarding the soul, and accompanied good pleasure, as the wife resigns herself to her husband's profound truth. Thus alluding to circumcision, the enhancement of a man's sensitivity towards his wife, both sexually and emotionally. Which if anything contributes to the felicity of marriage, as it draws specific focus to the genitals, while encouraging the man to take his time and savor the wine (from an erotic standpoint). Unlike the beasts of the field, where sex is an occasional matter and usually of short duration, involving little of one's mental faculties.

While circumcision can also mean the opposite. As this part of the body, through exposure and or abuse, loses its sensitivity and becomes calloused or dull, almost as if it never occurred. What I believe reflects the Christian Church of today, which has lost most of its vitality and, where great ignorance persists. And while this is very likely true, the idea clearly alludes to what is erotic and sensitive in nature, and hence the most plausible conclusion.

Thus man is aided in his role as procreator, where his highest creative energy is disposed towards the procreation of young. And being created in God's Image, it soon becomes clear—that God copulates! This is what the whole of nature suggests, as sexual reproduction is the norm for most species. While the earth, often referred to as God's footstool, is the foundation for everything of a higher order: heaven has its point of reference. Similarly, "A tree maintains its roots in the soil." All of which is probably best portrayed through the activities of Zeus, who indeed was sexual in nature. While one only need consider the Hindus and their various depictions of God, many of which are graphic and sexually explicit.

One number portraying Diana the most is 37, which joins Cindy (3), the woman's intellect, with Karen (7), the bride unveiled (as related in Karen). While the number 373 also corresponds and is essentially the same: when a number is joined to 7 (with the 7 preceding), such as 74, the 7 can be dropped (or remain silent), which leaves the number 4. Thus when taking the numbers 37 and 73, which is 73—read from right to left (37), and then left to right (73)—you come up with 3 (77) 3. The number 77 still corresponds to 7 which, is silent in either direction or, silent altogether. Leaving the numbers 373 and 303 (or numbers 3 and 3, i.e., 3 x 3 = 9), both of which correspond to Diana (9).

With respect to the meditation I practice in the beginning of the book, the colors yellow (3) and violet (7) are predominant but, are only present when a true exchange takes place: when the good of truth (yellow), corresponds to the good of love (violet), both of which are reciprocals (with yellow and violet being opposites). When this occurs, violet clouds begin to spill out in my mind, and yellow smoke begins forming around the edges. Hence the number 37 becomes 373, as the smoke ring completes itself.

And so a smoke ring forms and begins to diminish in size, until a new one forms to take its place, and so it progresses. As this occurs, it signifies a coming to terms of what I was meditating on: i.e., a resolution has been effected. (It isn't altogether different from the meditation Roy Masters teaches.) When this happens, violet and yellow clouds begin to form, and swirl and roll gently as they ascend upwards, into heaven. While I understand many souls are lifted up at this time, often whole societies, which I can attest to from experience.

"Slaughter the Lamb"

10. Joyce

Derived from the word joy, Joyce portrays a man's objectivity—at its height—and is synonymous to spiritual release. And in accord with Diana (9), corresponds to sexual orgasm, which I don't believe can be achieved unless a man remains objective through the experience (perhaps explaining the nature of impotence). From Aries (1) to Capricorn (10)—the Ram to the Goat—Joyce is the height of man as man (10) and, represents a state prior to conception, before being joinied to what is feminine and reciprocative (01): i.e., 10 + 01 = 11, as corresponds to Penelope (11), the faithful and responsive wife. (See Penelope.)

In effect it suggests mutual orgasm, on behalf of men and women, as illustrated by the number 101, which corresponds to Cindy (3). Where the masculine (10) and the feminine (01) elements approach at the moment of climax (101), prior to mutual union (11): as the husband and wife slip into the bath and undergo mutual baptism (signified by the zero between the two ones). Similarly, the embryo (11), hence the joining of the father and mother, is bathed in the elements of the womb. I give further reference to baptism in Penelope, regarding the thought stream and construction of a reservoir.

One thing I would like to clarify, is that unless a woman experiences orgasm or, has that capacity, it isn't possible for a man to experience orgasm—in the spiritual sense. For when men and women are united interiorly, the two are joined and become one flesh—or, one human being. Their souls are so joined that the wife is given to think what her husband thinks (which is of the understanding), and the husband is given to feel what his wife feels (which is of the will). Such is the harmony in their relationship which, is how it's portrayed in heaven.

Hence if a couple were so united, it's conceivable the man couldn't experience orgasm without his wife knowing about it: she's going to feel the same thing. While I understand the angels of heaven (those who have died and gone there) experience exactly this in their relating to each other. It's therefore appropriate that a man's experience be in accord with what a woman experiences. After all, making love—of an earthly union—is a spiritual act and, the man is making love to a woman: in spirit or, his idea of a woman.

Thus when mutual orgasm is experienced, it's significant that the chances of conceiving a boy child are increased. Due in part to the alkalinity of the man's semen and, to the amount of acid secreted from the woman's vagina, which tends to destroy a majority of sperm before reaching the womb. And being a condition that normally favors the gynesperm (female sperm), it increases the likelihood of conceiving a girl. On the other hand, when a woman experiences orgasm and discharges her semen (which is alkaline in content), the acid in the vagina is neutralized and gets washed out. Producing a condition that favors the androsperm (male sperm), and increases the likelihood of conceiving a boy. While this is a tradition that dates back to old Jewish times, giving more credence to my experience in chapter 7, regarding the number 444 and position ten.

All of which concerns the exploits of Dionysus, where only male children were popping up, born to one of his many nurses, and so the myth goes. Being the god of ecstasy, it's conceivable they were born of a state conducive to mutual orgasm—"101." While it's equally interesting how my rebirth experience occurred along Highway 101 in Northern California (off the shoulder and along the Russian River). With the number 101 sharing a similar significance to this joining of two minds: it occurred along the river (the thought stream) and the child that was born was a boy. I speak of this further in Judith (12), and go into it fully in the next chapter.

Finally there's the number 10, which is musically the same as the number 3, except it's arranged in the next octave. Making it reflective of Cindy (3), the woman's intellect, who's concerned with innocence and perpetual virginity. And clearly shows the connection between the numbers 10 and 101 (as corresponds to Cindy). The number 10 also corresponds to Virginia, the 10th state, and signifies a woman's innocence. Making Joyce indicative to the Virgin Conception, which is all the more unusual for I was conceived in Virginia. (See Cindy.)

"Break the Horses"