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  1) Man on Top ................................................................................................. Herd the Cows
  2) Rear Entry ................................................................................................. Tend the Sheep
  3) On the Side .................................................................................................. Milk the Goats
  4) Woman on Top ......................................................................................... Let the Horses in
  5) Standing Up ............................................................................................ Slaughter the Pigs
  6) Sitting Down ............................................................................................ Butcher the Cows
  7) Masturbation / Woman to Man ................................................................... Forage the Goats
  8) Masturbation / Man to Woman ................................................................... Fleece the Sheep
  9) Oral Sex / Woman to Man ...................................................................... Slaughter the Lamb
10) Oral Sex / Man to Woman .......................................................................... Break the Horses
11) Masturbation / The Man ................................................................................ Herd the Cows
12) Masturbation / The Woman ......................................................................... Tend the Sheep
13) Anal Sex / Man to Woman .............................................................................. Milk the Goats
14) Anal Sex / Man to Man ............................................................................... Let the Horses in

2  Above is a list of fourteen sexual positions that I view correspondently with the fourteen Gerarai [n4:1]. Presented in the same order, i.e., Daphne (1) [n4:20] through Rachel (14) [n4:123], they add a further dimension to the Gerarai's development and, portray the unfolding of the man/woman relationship. Thus I've listed them reciprocally, and stepped them off as masculine and feminine equivalents, like the Gerarai. I've also listed them in the order of what appears most acceptable, to what is least acceptable—even forbidden! The last two have a place, but are mostly representative, and I'm not recommending their practice. Yet upon further examination, it will be seen that just the opposite may be the case, in terms of what they represent, at least. Where each level represents a higher degree of development.

3  Before I begin, here's an unusual idea that fits in well with what's considered normal. By taking the letters n and m out of the word normal—in accord with positions 14 (n) and 13 (m)—you have the word oral which, are positions 9 and 10. And if you take these two away, you have positions 1 through 8, as well as 11 and 12. And, while some may consider positions 11 and 12 to be ab-normal (where ab = 12), these are more acceptable, except perhaps position 12. It seems more normal for young boys to masturbate than girls. And yet, all fourteen positions are contained within the word normal.

Animal Livestock

4  In addition to the fourteen sexual positions, I give various depictions of animal livestock, referrenced in Gerarai, which suggest a close spiritual approximation to the positions themselves. Which helps to keep things on a domestic level, from getting wild and out of hand. It's not an uncommon practice, in fact there are numerous biblical references of this sort, though not of a sexual nature. It's not unlike Greek representations though!

5  And here I'm reminded of a dream I had which shares the same significance. I found myself standing outside a high-rise apartment building, which symbolizes modern living, devoid of everything natural. And I opened the door and peered up the stairway, and saw a majority of tenants standing in the hallways: yelling, screaming and tearing at each other. It was a tower of infernal rage, and I thought, "Man, this isn't for me," and closed the door. And as I began to walk away, in the opposite direction, I seemed to float away. Before long I approached a barnyard, with all kinds of livestock: cows, goats, sheep, pigs, etc. And here I'm reminded of Roy Masters' Tall Timber Ranch in Southern Oregon. And I walked in among them and exclaimed, "Now these are my friends," and a very tranquil feeling came over me. Unlike the rage I felt coming from the high-rise—which was the exact opposite!

Conjugial Love

6  At this point you may be wondering why I should devote an entire chapter to sex, and its psycho-spiritual origins? For it might seem out of context with the nature of this book. And so prompts the next question. How important is eroticism for leading a fulfilled life? But, as I suggest in Diana (9) [n4:91], it portrays man's highest creative energy, and is disposed towards the procreation of young. And, that it reflects a God who copulates, best portrayed through the activities of Zeus. Nor must we forget the erotic origin of the fourteen Gerarai, i.e., the magazine at my doorstep [n4:10].

7  And in Swedenborg's work, Conjugial Love, he explains that conjugial or marital love, is the first and primary love that proceeds from God's throne, from which all others proceed. He also says it's a chaste love, in and of itself, devoid of lust [n9:27], that's ultimately expressed through sexual union. Albeit a distinction should be made between "conjugal" and "conjugial" (the extra "i"). Where "conjugal" is natural and entails the love of the other sex in general, and "conjugial" is spiritual and entails the love of wisdom and its uses.

8  Swedenborg also says a man's loins or thigh, or genital region, directly corresponds. And so brings up Dionysus, the only begotten son of Zeus, born a second time from his father's thigh: signifying the conjugial love of the Father or, Husband. Indeed, none of this was out of character with Dionysus. And, with its similarity to my experience in chapter 5 [n15], it seems to give me specific license to discuss this.

9  While in the book, Sex, Eros and Marital Love, available through the Swedenborg Foundation, by Gerhard Gollwitzer, it portrays the three levels of sexuality leading to what is truly marital: Sex, the lowest aspect, in accord with the natural man, where pleasure is derived solely through the bodily senses. Eros, the medium, where the spiritual man begins, as two minds are joined and begin to coalesce. And Marital Love, the highest and only genuine aspect, involving the most interior union between a man and wife; and is shared more by the angels of the third or celestial heaven.

10  Thus we're speaking of a relationship between Husband and Wife—or, God and The Church [n1:7]—which is suitably expressed in sexual terms. And the bottom line becomes: eroticism is the essence of what we are, and we shouldn't be too abashed about its expression. Indeed it was very much a part of Greek culture. And, for the sake of religion, for young people especially, its flexibility needs to be stressed. But I'm not saying we should preoccupy ourselves with sex, rather, we should try and maintain a proper balance and not go to extremes, like anything else. Therefore I'm handing you a bottle of wine and asking you to drink as you like—but not to get drunk! So I won't apologize for writing this chapter.

Erotic Vision

11  This prompts a final experience I would like to relate before I proceed. After I closed my eyes and began meditating one day I had a vision. And I saw four hounds, sitting at the four corners of a square facing each other. It seemed to occur for no reason, for I wasn't thinking of anything specific; and I began to think it had something to do with the goddess Diana [n4:86]. Then all at once the dogs arched their backs, raised their heads, and began to howl, though I heard no sound, and turned into a man's erect penis! While at the time, I didn't feel anything, emotionally, for I was looking at it objectively: it seemed matter-of-fact and nothing vulgar was implied. It was like somebody was there pointing it out and saying, "Hey, look at what you found."

Isis and Osiris

12  Speaking of the man's penis, it prompts the correlation between Dionysus and Osiris, the Egyptian fertility god. It's common knowledge both were related or, comparable, in fact Dionysus himself was a fertility god. While Osiris was the husband of Isis, his sister, and later murdered by his wicked brother Set, who proceeded to cut him into fourteen pieces! It's like what did he go and Die-on-Isis for? (i.e., Dionysus). Wow! Osiris was later restored by Isis, by means of his penis! See any relation to the Queen of Athens, the 14 Gerarai, the vision above and, the 14 sexual Positons? It's basically the same stuff! While in positon 7 [n39], I equate the woman with the man's penis, in relation to his feminine side and, in position 9 [n45], I say this is her closest and dear friend.

Gay References

13  You may also wonder why I haven't included any gay references here? First of all, since we're speaking of the nature of fertility which, for all practical purposes entails a husband and wife—or, God and the Church?—this is typically broken down between male and female. If not, nobody gets pregnant and, there are no more human beings! Also, as I said in chapter 3 [n3-4], where the husband joins the wife and, the "two become one flesh" or, "one human being," this represents the highest heavenly ideal. Meaning the heterosexual ideal becomes the default position, with no further need to elaborate. If homosexuals want to engage in sex, however, that's entirely up to them! Or, if they wish to refer to what I've done here, they can find a way to adapt. I created this chapter more or less for fun anyway!

14  Albeit at some point it should be addressed, for there are many (in the Church) who assume homosexuals are forbidden from going to heaven which, I don't believe is the case. At the same time I deem it symptomatic of something gone wrong with heterosexual relations. Not to say it's inherently evil—or, "whore-ably" disgusting?—just that it's one step removed from the heterosexual ideal; which, as I see it, stems mostly from advertising and, the Madison Avenue mindset. Where, by promoting promiscuity and lust and, the objectification of women—hey, sex sells!—it ultimately leads to prostitution and, treating women like a whore! Of course no self-respecting woman will tolerate this, and rebukes the man who continues to make such advances towards her.

15  And the man, who can't quite figure it out—due to social pressure?—gets tired of all the rejection or, one night stands or, his abusive attitude in general, and begins to feel degraded and lonely? Though it merely reflects his state of decline . . . as a John or, a pimp? To where homosexuality might seem a viable alternative. Except you still haven't addressed the lust!—which, is the very antithesis to happy marriages in heaven, according to Swedenborg. It also stems from Freud's Seduction Theory I believe, based on what I've heard Roy Masters say.

16  Anyway, ever wonder why drag queens dress up like prostitutes, who taunt and tease, and behave like this was the idealized woman? What does that have to do with being a woman or, wanting to become one? Somebody got their values mixed up somewhere! Or, look at your typical Gay Parade, with all the lewd behavior, etc. It's something to be mindful of at least. So, should that preclude homosexuals from going to heaven or, engaging in sex? It's like my roommate said, who worked as a cop in Watts, California [n13:53], where the 1965 Watts riots were held, he'd much rather deal with homosexuals than someone trying to kill him all the time. And, that's basically true. I think the important thing is we maintain a sense of civility and charity towards each other.

17  Of course if two people know each other well enough, and really care about each other, and get beyond the lust, etc., then it's really not for me to say. If, however, you discover this is your basis for being homosexual, the inability to relate to women properly, you may want to reconsider and reestablish your ties with women but, that's entirely up to you. Okay, that's the worst I have to say about it! I'm not here to judge anybody for it!

Orpheus

18  Enter Orpheus. The great musician and oracle, who swayed the beasts and the natural world—even the gods—with his music. Whereby he lost his wife Eurydice to Hades of the underworld [n11:314; n14:11,19] and, his feminine side was compromised? and swore to abstain from the love of women (or lust?) and became homosexual. He later established a major Dionysian cult, where the focus remained more on the esthetics, more in the likeness of Apollo, and less on the women. Yet it displeased the Maenads so much [n5:14; n11:401; n15:11,14], the women followers of Dionysus, who in turn wrenched his head off!—which continued to sing even after death! Such was the nature of the myth.

19  So, I'm wondering if that might have something to do with what I'm saying? That would at least assure homosexuals are received in heaven. And, since no one really chooses how they are brought up, which may or may not foster homosexual behavior, making it more a matter of nurture, some flexibility needs to be stressed. Or, look at the father (or other close relatives) who molests his son, who then becomes homosexual. Or, maybe the son's mother is extremely domineering, who is repulsed by her husband's lustful advances and doesn't trust men—where she might even become gay?—which achieves the same thing! Or, perhaps it's simple curiosity, similar to what happened between my cousin and I, when I wasn't much older than ten.

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