The Advent of Dionysus / Julie Beloved / Part 2 / 17.02

Michael

Which again brings up the part about casting the Devil out of heaven above, on April 1st, 1987. For it isn't until the archangel Michael does battle with him in

Revelation 12, verse 7, that he's cast out in verses 8 and 9. Which is essentially what happened 12 years ago, after I'd developed the symbolism in chapter 5, and began portraying it in my mind, and in a very demonstrative way I might add! Which is to say, if I hadn't done this, nothing would have happened. So it's in this respect that I would have represented Michael. Which would be about right, for when my mother had named me Dennis, she was seriously considering the name Michael. While it's interesting what the Kabalarian definition of Michael says.

Whereas something similar is reflected in my battle with Michael, for this person Mike had gotten the notion, through various correspondences with me, that this was who he represented, either that or he's using it to screw around with my brains (probably a little of both). And yet what he's really accomplished (almost), is take away that which is truly genuine and sincere about me, and twist it around into this perverted psycho-babble, with all its subliminal messaging, and in effect steal my very essence or soul (identity). Whereas in Swedenborg's account of Michael in The Apocalypse Revealed, he says that by Michael, is signified those who confirm from the Word (the bible) that the Lord is the God of heaven and earth, and that men ought to live by the ten commandments, and from this they have charity and faith. Hey I know these are my beliefs!

While evidence of this, particularly the part about the ten commandments, is illustrated fairly convincingly (whether you wish to believe it or not is up to you?), by each of my first ten residences in chapter 11, which as I've said, corresponds to each of the ten commandments (their development in my personal life). Thus having established these qualities throughout my first ten residences, it's time that I moved back in with my mother and bear testimony to what it all means. And being my eleventh residence, the number 11 being the number of testimony, it all tends to concur with the tesimonial of Michael, towards the end of March, 1987. What was that about Os-iris? (i.e., flower of the womb). What did he go and die-on-Isis for anyway, huh? Must have been some strange fertility rite I guess? Or was it that wicked Seth? Or, Angra Mainyu? (son of Ahura Mazda and opposer of the holy spirit).

And here it is twelve years later, and right around April Fools Day (I was telling David this was Lucifer's Day, the fall of), that this guy Mike yields most of his power from above—it was as if he were lording it over me—and gets cast down so to speak. From whence the battle ensues and culminates, on April 4th, Easter Sunday. Which, was the twelve year anniversary of the worst day of my life! And, while the battle continues on to this day (June 27th, 1999), I've gained most of my abilities back (and then some), and Mike and I have more or less established an uneasy alliance. And, much in the way I've had to go through many trials and tribulations to discover who Dionysus was, I think this is what Mike needs to discover, who Michael isn't. And indeed he's not the person I thought he was, and it's been my misfortune to discover how cruel and mentally tough he really is. Which he has no business exercising over anybody! And yet, it all seems to coincide with the initial fierce resistence Dionysus encounters when he first appears.

Two Daphne's

Well that's pretty much the extent of what happened at work, except I tried explaining to Julie why she so was important to me, saying she represented the heavenly bride (i.e., everybody's in love with Julie). Whereas I believe I've presented enough evidence here to suggest this is so. And I "tentatively" asked if there was any possibility that she might take an interest in me but, she said she had been seeing someone for a over a year and effectively said no. Since the thing with the daphne plant? Yet it was still news to me, for it wasn't something she went around broadcasting, and I really thought there might be something there, but then again I must have misconstrued this very "endearing quality" of hers. Oh Julie Beloved!

As it was the company was getting ready to downsize, and I was going to be laid off on April 23rd. Whereas just a few days before I gave her a copy of the book to read (the first ten chapters). And I believe on the same day she had gone out to have a cigarette on break, and after sitting on the lawn she came back in complaining about the fleas, biting her and eating her alive! And I said that's kind of strange, I've never heard of that before, but she said she'd always that problem. And then I later realized there's a "fresh water flea," which is called the daphnia flea! There it is right there! And so it was on my last day we all had gone to the Chinese restaurant and said our good-byes.

And when I was driving home on the freeway, I was wondering what could I possibly do to convey my feelings towards Julie? When all of a sudden the traffic came to a standstill, and when I looked over at the car next to me, I noticed the license plate, which said, "VSW 656." And I said here's the number 65 again, just like the note Julie dug out of the trash, which said "R650," except the 0 at the end was now a 6. And I said that's it! Here's the bride (6), looking at the bridegroom (5) looking back at the bride (6) which is to say, "If only she knew how I felt about her?" (the 0 at first signifying a lack of recognition). And I said, Well, what does "VSW" mean? And a moment later I knew: "Very Sweet Woman." Which is precisely what I was thinking!

This occurred on Friday, and on Saturday I opted to send Julie an e-mail explaining this, and bring up some of my other feelings: how she'd become the apple of my eye, but I was reluctant to say anything, how she was like Daphne wading in my thought stream, and touched me very deeply, while referring to the two dreams where she came up and said Hi, while mentioning her unusual allergy to fleas. I sent the e-mail on Saturday night, knowing she wouldn't recieve it until Monday, when she got to work. So here it is Monday morning, I had just fallen back asleep (I had problems sleeping), when I awoke and had a vision of Julie's face. It was radiant! As if lit up by the sun. And it was beautiful! And full of love! And I looked over at the clock which said, 7:30, and I thought, "I wonder if she just opened up the e-mail?" (for she started work at 7:00). So here it is, the woman clothed with the sun in

Revelation 12. Daphne beloved?

This was quite an encouragement, and later that day I called Darlene at work, and asked for the address, for I told Julie I would send her a "hard copy" for her reference. And while Darlene wasn't especially nosy about it, and doing what she could to get the address (she got it from the department secretary), she eventually asked, "What is this a love letter?" At which point I broke down and began to explain a lot of the things that had been happening, specifically the parts about the bridegroom (5) and the bride (6), Julie's relationship to Daphne, and the number 43. And when I told her I had just turned 43, and it represented the New Church, in conjunction with the number 12 (12 years since 1987), she asked what year I was born? And I said 1956 (hence the bridegroom and the bride. 56). And she said, "Well, I was born in 1943 (she'll be turning 56 this year), so maybe I'm Daphne?" And indeed there's something to be said here.

The first and obvious correlation is with the birth dates, she was born in 43' and I was born in 56'. I had just turned 43 and she'll be turning 56. Also, when adding the numbers 43 and 56, you get 99, which is Daphne's number, and here we are talking about The Advent of Daphne in 1999! Whereas the number 56 portrays the bridegroom (5) and the bride (6), which as I say in Rachel, signifies true love. Thus bringing up something else that happened in the last month or so at work. One of the other ladies had received an e-mail with all the Bugs Bunny characters in it—Bugs Bunny, Sylvester, Tweetie Pie, Daffy Duck, Pepe Le Pewe, etc.—which asked you to choose your favorite character, before describing your love life.

So when she asked me to choose a character (without knowing the descriptions), I said, "Well, none of them really do much for me, but for some reason Daffy Duck stands out." And when she read the description it said I was cute in this "very annoying" way and, that although I hadn't found my true love in life (56), it was right around the corner. And when she looked at me she said, "Yeah! That's you!" and busted up laughing. And when I asked to look at the list again I noticed Daffy Duck was listed 5th, and I said hmmm, here's the bridegroom (5). And I thought here's another sign (hopefully towards Julie) and was tempted say I was Daffy about Daphne (again another similarity), but because I hadn't fully disclosed my feelings about Julie, nor did I think she knew who Daphne was, I didn't want to go there.

Send a Daffy Duck e-card?

Then an hour or so later she started talking about Darlene's character, Pepe Le Pew, and although I don't recall too much, it said something about being "very loving." Sound like the description of the bride? And indeed Pepe Le Pew was listed 6th! And hence the bride (6). Whereas Darlene is a very likeable person, who has these endearing qualities, and I would be a liar if I said I never had feelings for her. So in this respect the number 56 does apply. While there's also a similarity between the names Darlene and Daphne, where the first two letters and last two letters are the same. So maybe Darlene is Daphne? Which actually makes more sense if you understand the myth, for after she flees Apollo and turns into a laurel tree, Daphne is purportedly whisked off to Crete, where she becomes Pasiphae, the mother of Ariadne. And who was Ariadne? But Dionysus' wife! (6).

Thus we have Daphne the mother (4) and Ariadne the bride (6), as corresponds to the woman's mother (46), and hence Sybil (4). Where mother and daughter are the same (i.e., Daphne). All of which brings up Arlene of Princess Thianna, my first and only real girlfriend in school. Where by adding the letter D, the 4th letter, you get Darlene or, (4). arlene. Which is to say Darlene (4) is the mother of Arlene (6). Whereas just like above, where the first and last two letters in Darlene and Daphne are the same, the first and last two letters in Arlene and Ariadne are also the same. Meaning, Darlene is Daphne (4) and Arlene is Ariadne (6). Wow! And so it is, Darlene is the mother (4) and Julie is the bride (6).

Which makes even more sense when considering Darlene is more the mother type, who gets teased a lot about her kids at work (the people who work for her). Also, remember the part about her middle name, which was May, but was supposed to be Mae? (my mother's middle name). And being the fun loving person that she really is, if there's any one person that I know, who could be called mother of the Maenads (worshippers of Dionysus), it would be Darlene! Oh, did I mention that Julie's mother's name was Darlene? Wow! (something I found out after having Darlene deliver a copy of this to Julie).

Then there's the numbers 43 and 34, which are the two reciprocals of Daphne (43) and Vanessa (34). Where Daphne portrays the woman herself (43), with respect to the bride (6), and Vanessa is the bride! (34). Again there it is! Darlene is Daphne (43) and Julie is Ariadne! (34). And Dennis is Dionysus! (33). While everyone is joined at Jennifer! (44) ... Did I say Darlene's mother was from Idaho, the 43rd state?

Number 432

Thus we have the number 432, which illustrates the relationship between the woman's will (4) and the heavenly marriage (32), and brings up what I say in Sybil (4), that the woman's will can't be ruled over by itself, except by the number 32. While according to Joseph Campbell, the number 432 is a very mystical number, and signifies the rhythm of the universe. All of which serves to exemplify the vibration between Julie and I over the last couple of years, between the ages of 41-43, and hence the following numbers: 41:4, 42:3 and 43:2. And here it is I first meet Julie at the age of 41, and I encounter Sybil (4), and hence the number 41:4. And indeed Julie came across as a bit unruly and headstrong, and was not the easiest person to get along with, just like Sybil here. And she'd run all these ideas past me (about the job or whatever), and expected me to accept what she was saying, hook, line and sinker, and then get up and do something about it, which she found out early on wasn't going to work with me.

But to the degree that I got to know Julie, and she came to understand I couldn't accept what she had to say, "blindly," she found that I was more than willing to help, I would do a good job, and she was very pleased afterwards. So it's at this point that we began to develop something more substantial and became friends. Which I ascribe to introducing Sybil (4) to Artemis, or Cindy (3), all of which became highlighted the next year with the incident with the daphne plant. And hence the number 42:3. While it was later that same year (1998), that I began to talk to her about my relationship with Dianne (more so to Julie and Darlene, the two Daphne's), which as I say in the previous page, corresponds to the spiritual kingdom (2), and hence the number 4-23. With the number 4 portraying the woman's will, and the number 23 portraying the heavenly bride or, a state of true intercourse, as conveyed in Diana (9).

While in a similar way, the number 4-14 represents the natural world (1), with respect to my feelings towards May, and hence a state of true love (14). Therefore we have the numbers 4-14 and 4-23, which signify the woman's will (4) with respect to natural love (14) and spiritual love (23), and it follows it should proceed to the number 4-32, the woman's will (4) with respect to celestial love (32), and it does! (While it's curious how these numbers 14, 23 and 32, occur within integers of 9.) Whereas it also portrays the celestial kingdom (3) together with the heavenly bridegroom (32). So, is it any wonder that all this symbolism came about in my 43rd year? And hence the number 43:2. Which portrays Julie herself (43), assuming her place as Jennifer (2), in the heavenly marriage (32).

Thus it is the number 432 is realized in two ways, through the age range of 41-43, and its culmination in my 43rd year, with the realization of Jennifer (43:2). While I should also say the number 432 corresponds to Judith (12) and signifies the New Church, which is Daphne (43) in conjunction with Jennifer (2). Whereas the main numbers involved in the heavenly marriage are the numbers 43, 34, 32 and 23. Where the numbers 43 and 34 are the two reciprocals of Daphne, the woman herself (43) and the bride (34), and the numbers 32 and 23 are the two reciprocals of the marriage, the heavenly bridegroom (32) and the heavenly bride (23). And guess what happens when you multiply each of these numbers, 4 x 3 (43 or 34) x 3 x 2 (32) x 2 x 3 (23), you get 432! Wow! See the pattern?

15th Ari / Darius

Having completed the main body of Julie Beloved here (on July 1st 1999), I e-mailed a copy of the last update, Number 432 above, to Darlene at work. And shortly afterwards I went to the bank to make a deposit, which I did, and when I was pulling out of the parking lot, I noticed the license plate on the car next to me, which said, "TFJ 650." And I'm thinking, "There's the number 650 again, just like the experience I had on the freeway. Now I already know what the 650 means (regarding the slip of paper Julie pulls out of the trash), but what does the TFJ mean? Try Fingering Julie? essentially what's implied when I compare her to Sybil above or, Try Firing Julie?" neither of which seemed to quite fit. While I noticed it was a turquoise colored Mazda Protege', and hence the colors green (5) and blue (6), which are the bridegroom (5) and bride (6).

From the bank I went to Safeway to buy some groceries, which I did. And when I was walking back out to my car, there it was again, the same car parked next to mine! And while I still wasn't sure about the letters TFJ, I began to wonder about the make of the car, Mazda. For according to Zoroastrianism, the major religion instituted at the time of King Cyrus of Persia, from which many of the tenets of Judaism and Christianity sprang (regarding the battle of good against evil), it was the supreme lord of heaven, Ahura Mazda, who stood constant vigil over the evil Angra Mainyu, opposer of the holy spirit. Whereas one of the main tenets of the faith is purification by fire, thus signifying the holy spirit. Therefore, if I were to say TFJ means Trial by Fire of Julie, with respect to Julie Beloved here, it would make a great deal more sense!

And indeed it exemplifies this battle between Mike and I above, for it's been my contention that every last particular in this book has been made manifest to me through the holy spirit. Which Mike, through his actions, has clearly chosen not to accept. And hey, if I were lying about it, I would have committed the ultimate blasphemy, and Mike would be right! Which doesn't mean I'm not beyond making mistakes, but rather, we have to be more mindful of our intent, for this is what determines our sincerity, and it's through our sincerity that the holy spirit engages us and makes itself known. Whereas this is really all I practice, a matter of looking at myself in the way I understand myself to be (honestly), and being receptive to what I see. Which you can try and find fault with if you like but, to the extent that you do, it takes time away from who you are, and those things you need to look at in yourself. And there it is!

So what does it have to do with the name Darius and the 15th Ari? While as I say, it was King Cyrus who instituted Zoroastrianism in Persia, who later conquered Bablyon in 539 BC and appointed

Darius, the Mede his governor. And it was King Cyrus who set the Jews free a year later and allowed them to return to Jerusalem to rebuild the temple. A task which wasn't completed until the second year in the reign of

Darius the Great, the successor and son-in-law of King Cyrus (the second Darius, and protege' of Cyrus), who was equally important to Zoroastrianism, after building the brilliant city temple of Persepolis, about the time the temple was completed in Jerusalem (signifying something similar). And so brings up the following inscription by Darius, "By the grace of Ahura Mazda I delight in what is right; I do not delight in what is false. It is not my desire that the weak should be mistreated by the mighty, nor that the mighty be treated wrongly by the weak. What is right and truthful is my desire." Sound like what I described above?

Therefore, in many accounts Darius himself is considered the first great Persian king to convert to Zoroastrianism (with Cyrus following the religion of his ancestors and creeds of his subjects). Which would be about right, for the name Darius means, "who sustains good thought" or, "he who upholds the good," which stems directly from the Zoroastrian credo, "good thoughts, good words and good deeds." Indeed this is what the ancient Greek historian Herodotus had to say about the ancient Persians, that one couldn't help but be impressed with how ethical and honest they were, with their great "love of the truth." While it's curious that their scriptures were called the sacred Avesta, with its similarity to Vesta, the Roman form of Hestia, the goddess of the hearth or, sacred fire. And here it was their ceremonial rites were performed around the sacred fire! And here it was Dionysus replaced Hestia! (thus signifying the holy spirit).

All of which brings up what Dianne said about me in the previous page, that I was so (damned) honest, and ethical, and that she considered it the finest quality you can find in a man. Which goes to show how close my character is to Darius, as well as Dionysus, and that none of this is a fluke. And so here it is I've just completed my Julie Beloved page, saying it coincides with this trial by fire—either I'm lying about it or I'm not—and to the second advent of the New Church. Whereas I've made the connection to Darius the Great, and the reconstruction of the temple in Jerusalem, and hence the second advent of Israel (i.e., church of). Which therefore follows suit with the 13th and 14th Ari's above, Daria and Darlene. See the connection to Darius? And all because of the Mazda car in the parking lot. From Aries K to Mazda Protege'? Wow!

Spirit of Love

The spirit of love is not of this world. It embraces me, and I long for it to do so. I am loyal to it, and it loyal to me, but there are very few of this world who are loyal to either, honestly. And when I go lay down, my chest tightens, my breathing is labored, and I'm completely overwhelmed, and in agony, for being unable to touch the one who has touched me. Albeit the one thing I do know is God loves me, because it's so beautiful!